a mystery

last night gave a ride to a self-proclaimed 20 year u.s. airborne ranger/military guy + texan......... now on dr. phil we have april 2012 episode: heros to monsters about ptsd kooky soldiers........ this blog posting links to some wife of some u.s. combat veteran that is disabled or needing full time care... she doesn't like dr. phil's 'rating whore' approach

http://torreyshannon.com/2012/04/dear-dr-phil-you-owe-american-veterans-an-apology-they-are-heroes-and-not-monsters/



changing topics........ a mystery has ocurred: found some files containing emails between my (now deceased) father and two of his Jesuit schoolbuddies from northern spain (asturias)........ how they got onto benji's computer is a bona-fide mystery to benji, of that you can be sure, was that you Alf????

anyway, didn't even know these two buddies of his existed but since their emails were included in the files/letters..... decided to email them to let him know he passed away a in july 2008 -- the letters were from early 2007........

hey changing topic again, you think you're a bit of a boy scout? all prepared and such? you know what preparation really is? it's having those little tubs of milk like you get in hotels, having some of those handy if your fridge for when your regular milk runs out: that's real preparation

anyway, back to iraq and war guilt.... look, let's say you're some african representing canada or whatever kind of 'westerner' and you're feeling some trauma and guilt and shock and adjustment issues coz of some tours you did in iraq, let's look at some of the reasons that could aggravate that:

i) you stabbed someone 50 times after you already unloaded into their intestines killing them screaming, 'die sand nigga' in front of his crying children

ii) you saw matt damon's latest movie

iii) some other similarly traumatic event

now, like the guy in dr. phil you're wondering if you'll ever make it to 'heaven' - e.g., after you die..... here's some hope for you: benji, big bad secret, ordered a hamburger in bulgaria in 2007, the cook was some iraqi refugee that just wanted to get away from all the violence....... then the boss was trying to steal like 10 cents out of benji so benji just threw the entire hamburger at the wall of the little kitchen and the whole thing exploded like a noiseless IED spreading lettuce and tomato everywhere, not to mention beetroot and hamburger mince......... how evil, how horrible of benji, oh the humanity, how will benji ever look himself in the mirror again? better to snivel and worry and throw tantrums then come to terms with the guilt of that, right?