start a new work week

last week was too hectic... it was meant to compensate for all that holiday time in fiji -- but ended up working 5 shifts in a row and like 65-68 hours worth..... that's like compensating for one of those (many) weeks years and years and years ago where i didn't even bother working 20 hours a week (just not working at all).... in fact, after various more years of driving 48-50 hour weeks, we calculate that ALL of Benji's lost downtime lost to sloth and laziness (and an accompanying slight depression somewhat usual for non-workers) will be recompensated for down to the minute and then some........

this week starts in a few hours and it will just be 4 shifts in a row with some extra hours after 4am....... (so maybe 53 hour week)

well another problem, since arriving back from fiji, started smoking en ENTIRE packet a day (like 25 cigarrettes) which went up from potentially only one a day in fiji just on willpower...... it made me so sick, smoking an entire packet a day that yesterday i went out and bought some champix (like $35) and took one and so only had one cigarrette late yesterday, giving my body a chance to recuperate from some kind of cold/cough it is taking on.......... also the weather here is hitting wintertime, this morning was one of the coldest on record, after a few days ago being the warmest on record in 70 years... this morning got to -5C in canberra... very cold - will have to wear an undershirt and use aircon this week

champix causes crazy dreams although they can be avoided if u self-medicate and just have half a pill... in any case, for whatever reason, yesterday's dreams were somewhat memorable (possibly coz of champix) -- some place like a river-delta kind of place -- there had been a huge flood and we were out to kill snakes after the waters subsided... was scared when choosing a weapon to hack snake about killing live snake -- fortunately someone beat me to one snake and had hacked it into about 5 pieces.... although not part of my normal reality (snakes) a friend that is doing a one year stint in angola has posted photos where the locals there commonly kill snakes (eg., pythons) and roast them.......... snakes are symbolic of wisdom and also evolution -- the snake eating its own tail is a symbol of human evolution and is a fit symbol for incidents like u.s. iraq war (most recent one) -- later u find iraqi refugees living in america, likewise with vietnam, afterwards members of the tail of the snake (humanity) - the vietnamese (tail) end up in the mouth (america) of the snake.......... anyway, my dream wasn't about evolution.........

anyway, the guy that helped me make this student film in 1999

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t3L4UR7TF94

(he held the camera) we caught up last night and we're both interested in making more student films... so we'll see what happens with that (potentially not much as too busy with work)

also in dream, was in someone's house, then some girl, like some classmate from like elementary school way back when (and high school too) -- she leads some kids up some stairs - like some of these kids were maybe students of mine in china.... then there's a secret doorway in the wall and they all go through it and then the secret door disappears... it's possibly related to some book was reading before sleeping, reading about exact same topic (secret doors and passages in relation to great pyramid of cheops) --- hard to say what is normal dreaming and what is champix dreaming -- champix makes dreams way more lucid

saw family guy for first time in months today - some 2006 episode with dumb blonde played by drew barrymore - very amusing and some futurama with 'titanic' space-cruise ship

saw documentary: collapse, 2 nights ago -- very cheaply made, just filming some ex-cia, journalist, lapd ex-cop guy who is behind on his rent........ talking about peak oil production and unfeasibility of other energies apart from wind and solar........ highly watchable

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1503769/

also of note, the waves and height of ocean around clovelly beach (on walk from coogee) was tremendously high -- after observing the height of water at clovelly during the 1980s (and 90s) one can only conclude that the ice caps are indeed melting and lifting ocean water levels....... apart from the extra water, alot of the excess height was  just due to extremely choppy, swollen waters

recent blog post about legless guy in hollywood somehow did not end up posting