revelation

well sorry to say, that last post had a lot of cussing in it and that's a shame, it's so

dissappointing, especially as a taxi driver where you're constantly basically raped by

people's ugly language...... even young children nowadays constantly resort to profanity and

the tv stations constantly let slip their standards.... it's not cool to swear.... what would

be cool is if you could just not swear ever... then you'd be fonzie

ok on tv here we have the first episode of australian big brother -- benji's never been a big

fan of it, anywhere in the world.... the one in spain made benji laugh becoz they had a

disembodied voice that was meant to sound really scary and scared the contestants... whatever

today was a real revelation -- we drove to bundeena which is an appendix to sydney, only

approachable by car through the national park attached to the southern extremity of sydney....

it's also approachable by boat from cronulla beach area which is where the race riots of early

2006 played out

we drove out from auburn through the national park and then got on the ferry boat for the

short ride to cronulla -- then, all of a sudden, there was a little girl on the boat, maybe

age 11 or 12.... but her appearance was a terrible shock: she was terribly disfigured,

possibly by third degree burns or else she was born that way, terribly disfigured, her skin,

sad to say, was scaly, like a hollywood villain from a batman movie.... her face was

tremendously hideous....... her impressions on one's emotions were arresting.... what a

tragedy that such a sweet tender creature as a little 11 year old girl should appear to be

such a monster, how sad, and why would God allow this, if she was born this way? see, it's one

 thing to be some kind of tremendous freak, like the child of some of my brother's church-

goers who are a family with a normal child and another child who is 15 or so but has the body

of a 4 year old with club legs and a permanent gas mask and not sure what kind of mental

state but always laying prone in a kind of a pushable bed/pram.... being a cripple or having down syndrome or any number of abnormalities would be better than this girl's condition......... how terribly tragic for her to have to carry that burden .......

was so shocked, or taken aback, felt a strange urge to steal a glance again at this girl's appearance, she really

did seem like a scary looking witch-doctor monster creation -- that's horrible... how can an

11 year old girl live like that?... as we got off the boat, we walked behind her family, her

father or father figure exuded an air of being a good, caring, well-natured man..... she

seemed to have a mother too, the last and possibly third glance at her face revealed the only

youthful appearance about her: big, unsightly, bucked teeth... if it wasn't for those teeth,

the first two glances would have betrayed nothing about youth about her, her skin didn't look

young at all, just burnt and gnarled, like the bark of a drought stricken tree....

how that girl can carry such a heavy cross is a great mystery.... one feels in shock just

recollecting the event... and profoundly impressed....... what a human Soul needs to learn

from looking like such a monster, especially at such a young age, is again, a matter for

consideration

the writer, since leaving some californian adventure, in early 2007, occasionally, since then,

at random moments, at first while awake but sleepy, but later just generally on the cusps on

nightly sleep, until a general petering out happened so that months would pass without a 'scary image'

flashing up... but that's the gist of it; just as a professional massuist irons out the  knots

in the back, so too your subconscious mind might end up taking a days or weeks or months of

worries and generating an image that can encapsulate and completely represent your negative emotions and

cares and worries in an almighty scary witchdoctor mask of an image.....

but the apparition of this flesh and blood scary looking little girl today, makes a person's

sadistic seeming subconscious seem like a sunday walk through the park in a walt disney

movie.... no hollywood horror film maker, has made a scarier, more fiendish looking creation,

than this flesh and blood girl of the real world.......

basically, next to that little girl's problems, your problems, whatever they are, are nothing