how a mild epileptic episode might feel

years and years ago it seems --- farther back than the writer can remember since the last time --- the writer would occasionally have blackouts -- which fortunately never interfered with driving, all those years ago....... maybe it was a co-incidence that they never interfered with driving...... they certainly were powerful events....... a feeling of awareness of the oncoming event --- followed by a need to squat close to the floor or ground so as not to fall over -- placing of hands close on the floor or ground to maintain balance --- already by this stage of crouching in anticipation the brain was already receiving some kind of strange chemistry and vision would start to become impaired by greyness and then dissappear...... but the mental state that ensued is hard to describe........ although the entire blackout typically would only last 5 to 10 seconds at most....... in the 1 or 2 seconds where it was at it's most intense it seemed impossible to control the body -- which would -- in any case -- often maintain itself in the squat with hands on ground/floor position ---- mentally -- at these times which probably only took around 3 or 4 seconds --- normal consciousness was gone --- an awareness of timelessness came about --- but not at all mystical or ecstatic as it was too fast and often in conjunction with a change in auditory appearance (along with the loss of vision and sense/physical motor control) --- it was like being tasered or something -- but it never hurt.......